People Around Me

What is wrong with me? I have friends! It's crazy, all of a sudden everyone misses me and wants to do stuff with me, even people I haven't seen in years! Why? Who really knows. But it makes me feel rather loved, almost normal. It always seems like everyone else is always hanging out with their friends. Not me. But this weekend I've got like a million things to do with people!
It's strange, lately all the people I absolutely couldn't stand, I'm actually just accepting. But then people I thought seemed okay, are really bothering me. How does that work? I'm just glad I'm coming to accept people as they are. (Though maybe that's a bad thing?)
I may not talk to everyone, but I shouldn't let it get me down. I do have friends. I might not talk to them that often, but I guess I just have to suck it up and live life for myself.
Haha, I was listening to the Eagles's song "Take it Easy". I love these lines:
"Well, I'm running down the road
tryin' to loosen my load
I've got seven women on my mind,
Four that wanna own me,
Two that wanna stone me,
One says she's a friend of mine,
Take it easy, take it easy
Don't let the sound of your own wheels
Drive you crazy
Lighten up while you still can
Don't even try to understand
Just find a place to take your stand
and take it easy"

At first you think whoa, seven women...but then you think and in my case I can think of seven guys hahaha. I mean just that I have crushes on or did or whatever. I can't really relate to the "wanna own" stuff though. But the last part about spinning your wheels, that's just deep. It's honest. It's true. Let it soak in.

To Be A Friend

It really doesn't take that much to be a friend. Haha, that's an odd thing to hear from me. I'm terribly shy. But occasionally I'll meet a person and I'll just know that we'll be friends, and we might become friends. You need to smile and wave when you see them, show genuine interest, invite them to things, make them feel included, and offer to go with them places or help them. You should ask how their day is going and wish them luck with their events. Even if you don't have much in common, if you display loyalty, their trust is yours.
:)

The Confused Unloved

There are so many wonderful people out there that feel unloved. For instance, think of all those blogs out there where people sadly say how no one reads their work and how hopeless they feel. In my opinion blogging is more for yourself, and if other people read, that's great. You should never start out doing something though to impress other people. You should start things for yourself and your own satisfaction.
I just can't get over how many brilliant people there are out there that fall into depression and sadness because they feel like they're calling out into the dark, that no one notices them. I've been there, I know what it feels like, but you must remember that someone does care. You just might not know it, or they haven't found you and your talent yet.
Stay strong and know that you are loved. Love yourself if nothing else.

A Better Day: Morals

Today I didn't feel to depressed. Sure, there were lonely and insecure moments, but there always are. My friends' support was still there. Things are looking up, though still no where near perfect, but they're on the way to making sense. I talked to a couple people today, which is big for me, though only for a little bit. As long as I make progress it's a good day. Sometimes I feel so unworthy and ugly compared to other people, but I know I'm not. If I believe in myself people will come to respect me. Things are the way they are because of me. It's my own fault, it always has been. There's no use blaming others, you have to take responsibility for your own life.
I've been reading about "morality" the past couple days. Morals are the values you hold that you use to make the decisions that form who you are. It's time to find better morals. It's about taking who you are and looking at who you want to be. You can never be anyone but yourself though. You can always improve yourself though. There's always going to be an imperfection. You just need to give life your best shot, and you'll be alright.

Once Again With Compliments And Positivity

Today I was trying on a dress and the lady that ran the store said it looked very cute on me, and then said so again once I was leaving the store. Just that simple comment brightened my day. So once again I encourage myself and all of you to encourage each other with positive advice and responses!
It's interesting how if you're at a store and the people working there are happy, you tend to feel happy too, and want to come back. If they're not, you don't feel welcome. I try to excuse people though, it's not easy work being happy and working. It's just really a delight when you run across happy people though, it truly is.

Compliments Are Worth Something

One of the best feelings in the world is feeling like you're worth something, like someone needs you. The best words to hear are "you are truly amazing" and "I can't thank you enough, you're a great friend!". Never hesitate to compliment someone. Words can have huge effects on people. You can raise people up or bring them down. We should never desire to bring anyone down. Let's join together to compliment each other. Thank you for reading this, you're an amazing person!

Whenever someone comes to you seeking advice and consoling, never turn them away. It takes a lot of guts to come out and share your problems with others. We remember who was there for us and who wasn't in our time of need. We need to be there for each other.

Let's go out and "be the change" we "want to see in the world" ! We need to "do little things with great love" !

Crazy End of the Summer Times

This end of the summer is a crazy time. Friends are fighting, feeling ignored and bullied, hurt and crying. I'm saying my last goodbyes. I'm not crying though. It's just the beginning. Things are a little rough now, well they always are, things are a little worse right now than usual, but I won't let this bother me. I've always been that girl on the sidelines, never getting involved. I'm not about to throw myself head into battles and provoke arguments though like my friends are lately. I'll stay that person everyone can trust, give advice, listen, and if someone does something deliberately to hurt me, then I'll do something. It's hard wanting to be friends with anyone right now seeing how they treat others, but until they hurt me personally, I can't just say I hate them. I'll speak when spoken to, but I'm not making any effort to befriend anyone who makes no effort to be my friend, and cusses out others.

Relationships are falling apart. It's for the best really. Why tie yourself down to someone who cares so little for you, who ignores you? Let yourself free if you're not happy, if you're not in love, if you don't feel like yourself anymore. If you've made tireless effort and have bore no fruit, maybe it's time to move on. Maybe it's not, don't listen to me, I know little about things like this. Somethings just aren't meant to be though. People and their desires change. It might not be your fault, but maybe it is. Be happy though despite all, live your life.

A very stressful thing is waiting for people to get back to you on something. You can sit and fret about it for hours, but it's not going to do anything. The best thing is to really just continue on living as before. Tell yourself, hey, if this happens, that's just wonderful, but if it doesn't, I guess it isn't the end of the world. I struggle with this, but right now I'm actually feeling just fine, knowing that it really isn't the end of the world. We can spend our entire lives waiting if we really want to. The trick is how we spend our time waiting.