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Monday, May 21, 2012

Hi.

Hi. I just need to say that it's over, as you might have already guessed. You're probably sick of me bringing it up, so I'm just going to end it here. It's not that you're a bad person. You're not. But you're not good for me. You're dealing with problems, and so am I. It's too bad we couldn't help each other more. It seems you created quite a few problems for me, but you left me alone to suffer. And now without you I've found all of my own struggles, how many there are even without you. You were only adding problems to cover up the real ones. The moment of happiness wasn't worth the year of pain. I've learned a lot. I've grown up. I don't know what's going to happen. But what I know is that it's over and that I won't be coming back. It was a lot better in theory than it ever was or is going to be in reality.
Farewell.

I want to know why

I want to know why I always fall for the same kind of guys.
They don't even have to try. I fall for them anyways.
They don't have to even like me or pay any attention to me. I love them anyways.
They're not really even nice. There's nothing to really like about them, but for some reason I like them.
Why?

Saturday, May 19, 2012

Ridiculous

This is ridiculous.
I'm beautiful. The world is stupid. My happiness depends on no one but myself and my actions. I won't feel ashamed of what I love and enjoy. I am who I am. I might be alone sometimes, I may not live a glamorous life, but it's my life. It's time I start enjoying it and stop caring what anyone else thinks.

Sunday, May 6, 2012

Lonely

I've been feeling pretty lonely lately. I keep thinking how I'll just have to get used to that. But the truth is, I've been lonely with you for months. What difference will being alone without you make? At least then I'll be free.

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

That Point

That point when I just don't care anymore.
That point when you don't consume my mind.
That point when I think of happiness, I don't think of you.
That point when I think of love, I don't think of you.
I think I'm at, or reaching that point.
And it feels just fine.