Wowzers Day

Today has been quite the amazing day.
In gym today, dodge-ball was being played. I do not like dodge-ball at all. This is because I can't throw, aim, or catch. So I always end up last, which is just humiliating. I thought we'd put dodge-ball behind us in grade school...apparently not.
Anyhow, of course we had captains picking teams. Of course I'm picked last. It's wasn't surprising. It's been like that my entire life. The instructor we had today though, last time we played a game with captains, made it so that no one was picked last. He's stop the captains from their choices when there would be about six of us left, so no one would be singled out at last. I appreciated that. I was sort of ticked off that he hadn't done that today, but life goes on.
So, now the important part:
There's a guy in my class I sort of have feelings for. I'm on his team. Once I get automatically added to his team since I was last, he exclaims, "And we've got Magdalena! Whooo! Let's go baby!"
I found this amusing. Of course he was just being his usual energetic self, but it made me happy to know that he actually knew my name, and use "baby" in the same string of phrases.
Then a ball hit me near my head, my hair actually haha, and he was like "That was a hair shot! She's safe!". I found this amusing as well.
I've been reading some books lately that have mentioned that if you want to be happy or get anywhere in life, you first need to establish what you want and where you want to go. I mean, think about it, if you don't know what you want, how are you ever going to be satisfied? So today I decided to try the theory out. As we were playing dodge-ball, the guy I am amused by is out (because he does style shots and gets hit about every five seconds). So I tell myself that I want to catch a ball so that he can come back in. I've like never caught a ball in my life during any game like this. No joke. Amazingly, guess what happens next? A ball sort of hits me in the neck/face, bounces off me and another girl catches it. Then that guy is in. Coincidence? I think not. Nothing like that had ever happened to me before. Then, to prove this point further, the next game I think to myself again, I want to catch a ball and get him back in. Guess what happens? I actually catch a ball on my own! It was amazing! And then he was back in! :D Yes, life is awesome.
Then, as if life hasn't been interesting enough today, in my public speaking class, I wanted to give my speech next, and as I'm thinking this, my teacher calls my name to go next! I kid thee not!
That class went well for me today. I gave a speech I'd only read once, that I wrote in 20 minutes a few days previously. I got an awesome response, as I looked out at my audience I saw shock and awe in their eyes and they applauded me quite loudly. Everyone loved the speech, even those who disagreed with the content. But my favorite part of my critique was that my instructor said that I basically frightened him with my sternness. Oh, how I do love public speaking...it's the only chance I get to yell at people and assert authority.I feel like I'm bragging now, but I'm sorry, public speaking is one of the not so many things I'm good at.
So that has been my day! It's been quite amazing! I strongly encourage you to set positive goals for yourself and focus on them! I'm usually pessimistic, but it worked even for me!

A Better Day: Morals

Today I didn't feel to depressed. Sure, there were lonely and insecure moments, but there always are. My friends' support was still there. Things are looking up, though still no where near perfect, but they're on the way to making sense. I talked to a couple people today, which is big for me, though only for a little bit. As long as I make progress it's a good day. Sometimes I feel so unworthy and ugly compared to other people, but I know I'm not. If I believe in myself people will come to respect me. Things are the way they are because of me. It's my own fault, it always has been. There's no use blaming others, you have to take responsibility for your own life.
I've been reading about "morality" the past couple days. Morals are the values you hold that you use to make the decisions that form who you are. It's time to find better morals. It's about taking who you are and looking at who you want to be. You can never be anyone but yourself though. You can always improve yourself though. There's always going to be an imperfection. You just need to give life your best shot, and you'll be alright.

Once Again With Compliments And Positivity

Today I was trying on a dress and the lady that ran the store said it looked very cute on me, and then said so again once I was leaving the store. Just that simple comment brightened my day. So once again I encourage myself and all of you to encourage each other with positive advice and responses!
It's interesting how if you're at a store and the people working there are happy, you tend to feel happy too, and want to come back. If they're not, you don't feel welcome. I try to excuse people though, it's not easy work being happy and working. It's just really a delight when you run across happy people though, it truly is.